In these days, I was severely occupied by article-related things. It didn't go as I had imagined before, not that easy at all. To accomplish this article, I set a deadline for myself. Before I started to write my article, I had collected many articles and work done by others. And I made a brief outline before I read those materials. All day long I stayed in my office trying to sort out some useful information and keeping lots of notes. Though I browsed all the materials one by one, I still couldn't keep all the things in mind. When I tended to write, I didn't know how to start. While as the time passed away, I felt more and more nervous and upset. This embarrassing situation made me exhausted, it devoured my passion and hope. And it totally went against my original intention.
As a worker in the research institute, I expected to do everything on basis of interests and gains. So, before this article, I was also having that attitude. However, it might be due to the deadline, I felt much pressure and everything I did seemed to serve for accomplishing one task only, but not for learning something or solving problems that puzzled me. In this messed situation, I seemed to have forgotten what I was striving for.
Honestly, it was not wrong to set a deadline, because that was a good way to avoid laziness. After reflections, I thought my problem lied in that I didn't learn from others in a modest way. Actually, every published article was a masterpiece of those authors, it may cost them lots of time and efforts. While, to accomplish mine in time, I forgot to seriously study what they thought, what they had done and how they organized the whole article. It was my fault that I didn't figure out those things in advance, instead, dream to have great innovation. This just seemed to say I wanted to run before I knew how to walk. Luckily, I had recognized my problem for this moment.
To learn from others was not only well applicable to writings, it was applicable to everything. In our life, only if we modestly tried to find others' merits, we would know our own deficiencies and have chances to promote ourselves.
